Meditation is still on my daily to-do list, but to be honest, it's not going great. I don't blame Habit Bull for not keeping me accountable, either; it's just surprisingly difficult to get myself to sit quietly and focus on my breath for 10 minutes every day. Which is dumb, cause really, but just like any other homework I give myself, I struggle to make myself do it.
|I don't know what happened last week, but yikes....38.2% is weak|
So far, I can remember becoming lucid in 3 dreams in the past month or so. During each of these dreams, there came a moment when I realized, "Hey, I'm dreaming!", which is the first step to a fully lucid dream. Super cool!! The problem is that once I realize I'm dreaming, I try to change the dream, and that hasn't worked out well so far. For example, in the last dream, I was working in an office with a team of FBI agents when I suddenly realized I was dreaming. I wanted to fly and explore my dream world, so I closed my eyes, and I started to float up and (I was hoping) out of the building. But before I could go anywhere, one of my dream characters grabbed me and pulled me down, and told me to get back to work! The rest of the dream I was sitting at a computer, trying to solve the same problem over and over. Now what does THAT mean? *paging Dr. Freud*
Even though it's still a learning process, I have to believe that my work with meditation has helped open a doorway to my subconscious and increased my awareness, but clearly, I have a ways to go before I can fly to Norway and dance with a herd of reindeer underneath the Northern Lights. Or whatever I feel like doing when I finally break through.