Monday, September 26, 2016

Updates!

I'm sure that you've all been on the edge of your seats waiting to hear about the projects I started a couple weeks ago. Well, I thought I'd try to be a good blogger for a change, and present you with some timely updates.

Meditation
This goal has been going relatively well. I've managed to meditate between 10-12 minutes for 6 of the past 12 days. It doesn't sound that great, but compared to 0 days of the past 35 years of my life, I'm proud of how well I'm doing! I found a much better app to use to track my new practice than Logster, too. (See one of the useless graphs that Logster produces below.)

So as you can see here, the number went up and down - fascinating!

The new app I'm using is called HabitBull, which is free, but does offer premium features (aka cost money) which are way beyond my needs. The free version lets you track 5 habits (which is probably more than I can try to instill in myself at one time anyway!) by setting both a daily goal, which is measured by either a yes/no or a number, and a streak goal, which is how many days in a row you want to do the new habit before you succeed. They recommend 66 days so that's my goal.

We were in Berlin for the weekend, during which time I ignored the reminders and failed to meditate, so I had to start over with a zero day streak. It amazed me how much more difficult it was to stay focused today, after just 3 days without practicing. The thought "how much longer is there?" popped up in my mind several times, which hasn't happened since the first few days. It reminded me of dieting or exercising - it's so much harder to get "back on the wagon" than it is to start fresh with a new habit. Why is that?

Berlin was lovely, by the way

Reading list
Psychology: The Truth Behind Your Behavior and How You Can Take Control of Your Life by Steve Blackman was a waste of time, money, and anticipation. It belongs on the "Do Not Read" list. Then again, it was only 99 cents, a true sign of top-notch quality in the publishing world. Keep my 99 cents, Steve, you earned it - you found an easy mark.

I haven't gotten all the way through Lucid Dreaming: A Beginner's Guide to Becoming Conscious in Your Dreams by Charley Morley yet. After Part I, which focuses on how to become lucid, Part II starts to delve into what to do during lucid dreams, and I don't feel like I need to read about all the cool stuff I can't do yet. I did realize once that I was dreaming (hooray! Step 1!), but when I tried to change the dream, it turned into a gray wall, like a screen locking up or static on the TV, and I couldn't go any further. I figured I still have some work to do becoming friends with my subconscious, so I've focused on meditation for the time being.

I also started re-reading Lucid Dreaming, Plain and Simple by Robert Waggoner, another leading figure in the world of lucid dreaming. His book contains even more suggestions of how to become lucid than Charley's book; Charley, as a practicing Buddhist, teaches inner awareness and meditation as keystones of becoming lucid, while Robert offers many other techniques. Some of their techniques overlap, of course, and both of them recommend using lucid dreaming as a way to explore the self. (Robert's other book is Lucid Dreaming: Gateway to the Inner Self.) So my hunt for lucid dreams continues.

Bonus: Canada!
Alex and I have been waiting to hear back from Canada on our visa application since we applied in mid-April. It has been a struggle to stay patient, as I'm sure you can imagine. We ordered a copy of our immigration file last month, and we just received it - it seems to say that we are approved, which is great news! However, we still haven't gotten our "Passport Request," which is the last step of the process before we can move.

We expect to get it by mid-October, which is 6 months after our application and in line with Canada's average turnaround time for visa applications, but of course we're hoping to get it even sooner. We're already selling off our furniture in preparation, and we've gotten quotes on the cost of shipping Neko over. Finally, the long wait seems to be nearly over, and I'm ecstatic!

The land of Terry Fox, the Gimli Glider, and Justin Trudeau...they've got it all!

Monday, September 12, 2016

Reading list and recent thoughts

I haven't been posting much because it doesn't feel like I do very much, not much worth writing about at least. Sitting around my house in Villeurbanne streaming my way through all 7 seasons of The Mentalist doesn't provide much fodder for thoughtful reflection. However, I've been on somewhat of a reading kick lately, so I decided to put my latest musings out there. This is partly so I can hold myself accountable, but it might also trigger curiosity in one of you, which would be neat.

My handsome-yet-formulaic muse

The books I've read recently:

Fringe-ology by Steve Volk: This was written by a journalist who goes out in search of the "truth" behind ideas on the fringe - UFOs, ghosts, near death experiences, lucid dreaming, etc. He skewers both believers and skeptics, arguing that the people on both sides of these phenomena engage in emotionally-driven arguments, which at best ignore, and at worst purposefully conceal, the existing evidence. I like his approach very much; he's open-minded but demands some kind of evidence, whether "explainable" or not. Now, I know that lucid dreaming is real, because I've done it. I haven't had personal experiences with the other topics though, so his even-handed treatment was intellectually satisfying, and the writing is high quality. I highly recommend this book if you are at all curious about "out-there"/paranormal/unexplained ideas and events. I blasted through it in a few days; a thoroughly enjoyable read.

The Chaos Protocols by Gordon White: Most of you will shake your heads at this one, and that's fine. It's written by a blogger who lives in London, and it covers two topics: 1) how to perform magic spells and make otherworldly connections in order to improve your life, and 2) the economic downfall currently in progress vis-à-vis unsustainable debt loads, the shrinking middle class, and technologically-driven changes to the global economy. The half of the book that is an economic treatise is clearly his own worldview, and he makes a decent argument for it, although I loathe the James Altucher references. The magic itself I haven't tried yet; when I do, I'll be sure to let you know the results! Regardless of the efficacity of the magic, I found his ideas thought-provoking, and if nothing else, allowing myself to see the world and my place in it through a different lens was an interesting and useful exercise. Mr. White's blog, too, looks like a rabbit hole I could happily fall into for months.

How to be Creative by Malcolm Hughes: This is a tiny (and cheap) e-book, with just 5 chapters, or "steps," to help you become more creative. Is it a vast oversimplification of how to trigger creativity? Yes, of course. But I wasn't looking for a different version of The Artist's Way - I wanted a quick and dirty reminder that I could pick up and read in a couple hours. Did it fit the bill? Yup. For $2.99 I feel satisfied.

So, having read these books in the past month or so, a few themes have arisen:

First, the importance of meditation. I've heard over and over, from so many different sources, that meditation is good for you. Even WebMD has an article about the health benefits meditation provides. But both Mr. Volk and Mr. White heartily recommended meditating, so I decided that if it can help me lucid dream AND do magic, it's worth starting a meditation practice. Since you get what you measure, I downloaded a free app called Logster, so that I can keep track of my meditation; specifically, how many minutes per day I meditate.  I'm hoping to keep myself on track by doing this. My goal for now is 10 minutes/day, eventually getting up to 20 minutes/day. 

Is it ironic that I got this graphic from Business Insider?
Second, the importance of doing. I'm sure that sounds basic to a lot of people, but I have a tendency to read and study and think about things without ever getting into the meat of trying things. What's the point of learning if you don't act on what you've learned? (Assuming you think it's worth acting on, of course.) In other words, I procrastinate too much, and I'm trying to be less lazy. A worthy personal goal, wouldn't you agree? Hence the meditation - putting into practice what I've been reading about.

Third, the interplay between the conscious and subconscious mind. I'm going to do more reading on this because one of the topics in Fringe-ology that I found really fascinating was the idea of Consciousness. What is it, and where does it come from? Is it the result of a series of electrical impulses in the brain? Or does it arise from something deeper than that? I'm also fascinated with the idea of the subconscious mind, and the potential it holds. I want to lucid dream so I can interact with my subconscious, and if possible, I want to tap into its creative power.

Finally, human psychology in general. What makes people tick? This is the influence of my latest binge watching; Mr. Jane makes me want to know more about people's motives. It's also the case that I'm someone who considers herself a writer, at least on some level, yet I don't feel that I understand people well, which makes for poor character development in my fiction as well as less effective personal communication in my own life.

I have the following books queued up on my kindle for the next phase of research:
Lucid Dreaming: A Beginner's Guide to Becoming Conscious in Your Dreams by Charley Morley (I've read this book once before, but I'm hoping to glean new insight out of it now)

And in between reading, meditation sessions, and episodes of The Mentalist, I'm hoping to come up with a great idea for a book. Please feel free to leave a comment and share your experience with any of these topics, since I'm always interested in hearing other people's stories!

-Lucy


Thursday, February 4, 2016

Ode to the Skyway

I'm back in Minnesota, and having had the opportunity to wander around in downtown Minneapolis for an hour this morning, as I strolled from one building to another via the skyway system, I realized that I truly love it.



Not just in an "omg, I love The Big Lebowski!" kind of way, either. Emotions run thick through me in certain sections of skyway; memories of people, events, and jobs, and what they meant to me, are inescapable. Some buildings calm me; others make my pulse race. It's amazing the gamut of feelings I experience merely by walking past offices, restaurants, and shoe shines.

A view up 4th Street
You have to look closely - it's just past the Sheriff's office




One of the coolest parts of the skyway system isn't even a skyway: it's a tunnel that runs between City Hall, the Federal Courthouse, the Grain Exchange building, and Haaf Parking Ramp. If you blink, you'll walk right past the door. It feels like a secret hidden in the lower level of City Hall.








Stairway under City Hall, or Dracula's crypt entrance?






Then you go down a flight of stairs and end up in what feels like a lunchroom in Purgatory: gray, hard, and empty, but with free napkins and a few vending machines. It's a strange place and feels very in-between. I have rarely seen any other person down there - and the spookiness has just begun.

Once you leave City Hall, this is what you enter:
So welcoming!



Is this a Kafka-esque nightmare? Or am I actually still underneath the city of Minneapolis? One thing is for sure: it's super creepy. Other people are few and far between. The farther I get, the faster I walk, as the terror begins to set in. If you like feeling as if you're in a slasher flick or wish you could have been in The Shining, head down there ASAP.









View towards downtown



But my favorite chunk of skyway is a crossing over 3rd Avenue, between 3rd Street and Washington Avenue. It's between a quiet and usually empty Wells Fargo operations building (very calming - the HVAC system makes great white noise) and the new Parallel 45 building (and, on street level, Lickety Split and Rick's Cabaret).










View towards NE

One reason I like it so much is that it seems largely unused; the eastern end of the Skyway system is much less populated than on Nicollet or around the IDS Center, and it's between two buildings that don't see much action, so passers-by are infrequent. It's the only public space I've found downtown that gives me a sense of quiet privacy, and I used to go there to both think and zone out during the workday. I've had many contemplative moments there, looking out towards the 3rd Avenue bridge and Northeast Minneapolis.






I'm not sure what it says about my psychology that I love what are essentially huge hallways. The symbolism of a series of hallways speaks to a search for meaning? The sensation of getting lost in such a maze-like web? The feeling of being at once surrounded by other people, yet ultimately alone, is the physical experience of existential nihilism? Who knows. All I know is that I love it.

Monday, January 25, 2016

No Poo, Day 4: the Incredible, Edible Egg

Waking up to the 4th day of greasy/waxy hair after my failed baking soda wash on Day 1, I said "Enough!" and decided that it was time to get serious. I mean, if my hair was going to stay that nasty all the time, this experiment would be over by the end of the week!

So I chose an egg wash, hoping that it would get me back on track. I had to tweak the recipe due to a poorly-stocked kitchen - here it is:

-2 egg yolks
-juice of 1/2 lemon
-white vinegar
-distilled water
Directions: Break the yolks and mix them with the lemon juice. Wet your hair and apply the egg and juice mixture; massage it on your scalp and through your hair; let sit for 10 minutes. Rinse out with cold water. Pour a 1/2 cup of white vinegar and 1/2 cup of water over your head; let sit for 1 minute and rinse out with cold water. Allow to air dry.

I followed the recipe for the most part, except I used 3 egg yolks because 1) we happened to have 3 eggs left, and who eats just one egg, and 2) I was really paranoid about getting my hair clean, so the extra egg felt like it would have more "oomph." I also didn't have lemon juice so I added a little bit of water instead and mixed it up. I followed the rest of the directions exactly - standing wet and chilly in the shower for 10 minutes was not the highlight of my day - and towel-dried my hair until it wasn't dripping anymore.

Now that my hair is dry, I can happily say this was a complete SUCCESS!! My hair is clean, so gloriously clean, that I just want to kiss it. It's also soft and smooth. I have read in a couple of places that hair can "overdose on the protein" in egg washes, so apparently it's not a good idea to use it too often, but it will definitely be a permanent fixture in my hair-care arsenal.
Two thumbs up!
So fresh and so clean! clean!
         

Friday, January 22, 2016

New experiment, Day 1: The No-Poo Move!

I don't know what it is about being over here that makes me want to try new stuff - aside from the crushing boredom and loneliness - but my year in France has been a spontaneous time of trying new things (or, tried and previously abandoned things). The French language, baking, nail art, journaling, retro hairdos, makeup tutorials, sewing....these hobbies have all crossed my path. And now, not yet a full month into 2016, I am starting yet another new experiment: No Poo.

Yes, I still have BMs - "No Poo" is the shorthand for No Shampoo. That is, I am giving up commercially produced shampoo and conditioner in an effort to go natural with my hair. I bought an ebook by Lucy AitkinRead called Happy Hair - The Definitive Guide to Giving Up Shampoo as my reference and dived right in. (I really like spending money, but there are lots of free resources on the internet too - blogs, articles, etc.)

So here on Day 1, it was time for the first Baking Soda wash and Apple Cider Vinegar rinse! I used one "dessert spoon" of baking soda in 1 cup of water as my washing agent, and I'll be honest, I was extremely nervous about whether it would actually get my scalp and hair clean. Not having those familiar, comforting suds calling out, "Look! I'm cleaning you!" was strange, and so I massaged my scalp for a minute or so and then waited another minute or so before rinsing it out.

(Unfortunately, Ms. AitkinRead mentions several times in her book how hard water with lots of lime scale will not help the adjustment...which of course is exactly the kind of water we have here. This fact also increased my nervousness, so I decided to boil the water for the cleanse and rinse mixes first in order to get rid of as much of that lime scale as possible.)

Then came the 2 Tablespoons of ACV in 1 cup of water as the rinse/conditioner. I also let it sit on my hair for a minute or so before rinsing it out in cold water. And finally, the moment of truth: I unwrapped my hair from its towel and grimaced. Is it just wet, or still greasy? What is it going to look like dry?? OH DEAR LORD WHAT HAVE I DONE??

Love that wavy bit
next to my face...
...but UGH - that grease!



To be honest, now that it's dry, I'm seeing not-so-great results. The top layer of my hair looks fine - clean, normal, even a bit wavy in places - but underneath is a different story. It's grease city under there.






EWWWWW - super greasy in the back :-(


I'm thinking that my hair might be too thick to just pour a cup of water on...next time maybe I'll double the recipe, or use a spray bottle and lift my hair up in chunks so I can really get it all over. Dang! I was really hoping for a great first time (aren't we all? WINK). I really have no patience for the learning process, but I guess I'll have to deal with it. Or just go back to normal shampoo.





And why this particular experiment, you wonder? Well, friend, I'm not sure how to explain it. Perhaps I have always been a dirty hippie hiding inside a corporate monkey's body, just waiting to burst out in all her glory; perhaps the EU regulation of chemicals in food and personal products has leached ever so ironically into my consciousness.
Dear God, no.....noooooooo!

Or maybe it's all that time I have to sit around and think about how I would rather not be exposing myself on a regular basis to formaldehyde, sulfates, or parabens, to name just a few of the less pleasant ingredients one might find in modern beauty products. (Thanks, corporate overlords!)

In fact, it's getting so serious that I'm planning a trip to the local organic/health food store to look for ingredients for homemade deodorant, body wash, and toothpaste...dear God....I AM a hippie now!!! Damn you, France! Damn you!!!!

But then again, if these next experiments all go as poorly as this first attempt at No Poo, I'll be back on the corporate spending treadmill in no time.


Saturday, October 10, 2015

This is what happens when I try to speak French

Part of a conversation while driving home from the dog park this morning:

Me: "Je pourrais ça imaginer." (I could that imagine.)
Alex: "Non, c'est 'Je pourrais imaginer ça.'" (I could imagine that.)
Me: "Oh."

2 minutes later:

Me: "Je peux expliquer tout!" (I can explain everything!)
Alex: "Non, c'est 'Je peux tout expliquer.'" (I can everything explain.)
Me: *commence rampage*

This is why I hate French.

Tuesday, October 6, 2015

Fox's Scream Queens: Unrelenting Garbage, or Diamond in the Trash?

Anyone who knows me well will tell you that I am not a fan of the horror genre, for the simple reason that I am easily frightened. I am one of those people who cover their own eyes during scary or graphically violent movie scenes; I am not only very impressionable and easily influenced, but I also have vivid dreams, which is a terrible combination for a horror movie audience.

However, in an attempt to expand my horizons (aka Alex talked me into it), I recently watched the first two episodes of the new show "Scream Queens" (FOX). And, much to my surprise, I really liked it! Let me break it down.

Merits:

1) I love the nearly-all-female cast. This passes the Bechtel test in the very first scene, which is rare for modern entertainment. In fact, the first 6 minutes goes without even a mention of any male character (broken only by the naming of a male goat). Granted, pretty much all of the female characters are total caricatures, but then, so are all the male characters.
2) It is ridiculous. I love how every single line of dialogue, camera shot, background, motive, and costume is a complete mockery of the setting and characters. It's some of the best parody I've ever seen; the absurdity that coats every scene is made even better by the earnest actions and reactions of the characters. Without it, the show would fall painfully flat, but imbued with the never-ending ridiculousness, it is thoroughly enjoyable.
3) Funniest death scene ever. I will give a minor spoiler here - Chanel #2 has the best death scene I have ever witnessed. I laughed out loud before and during her death, which actually disturbs me to some degree, but it was just too silly not to. It's about halfway through the first episode, so I encourage you to watch until at least that point before you come to any conclusions.
4) Jamie Lee Curtis. "I'm going to barf on your face unless you get out of here." 'Nuff said.

Faults:

1) Bad language. I realize that I sound like my grandma now, but really...calling other women "slits" and "gashes" is about as gross as you can get. I know that it's part of the characterization of Chanel et al, but still...it's icky. Ew.
2) A lot of things are offensive. Yes, this whole show is about a self-obsessed, privileged, doesn't-have-a-soul while girl, but still...I was uncomfortable more than a couple times. I can't tell whether they're trying to push the envelope of societal taboos or just trying to shock viewers for ratings' sake.

Overall, in spite of its baser facets, I actually have to recommend this show, as long as you go in knowing that it's going to be hilarious and disgusting at the same time. Its amazing sense of humor won me over, in spite of not being the type of show I would normally watch.

If you want a good laugh *and* are old enough to tell satire from serious drama, check it out!